There seems to be a theme in my feedback, almost everyone who has messaged me has asked this little question...
'do you take medication?' The answer is yes, yes I do, I was given it at the ripe old age of 16, 2 years under the age limit as my psychiatrist knew I couldn't cope.
I take fluoxetine (Prozac/Prozep) which although balances my mood to help me cope in day to day life, it leaves me with suicidal thoughts when down. This is a side effect of the medication, and I can honestly say since stopping self harming and talking to the police the urge to kill myself has settled and unless I am part of another tragedy, I don't believe I would kill myself. Other symptoms of mine are sickness, headaches and really strong withdrawal symptoms if I miss a day (I tend to be very nasty and get upset over nothing).
Although I was underage for the limit of my medication I was put on as just my counsellors and psychiatrist were not enough to help me and all I did was deteriorate.
I wouldn't recommend the use of anti-depressants/anti-psychotic drugs to anyone, unless extremely necessary as they become addictive, work alongside your psychiatrist or counselor, work with the nurses and doctors to naturally help your mental health, do not rely on pharmaceuticals, its so much healthier and trying to end the drug use delays your progress and brings you down!
Lots of love,